Monday, December 25, 2006
做了一场恶梦，一场应该是很可怕的梦，但是我却在眼睛张开的那一瞬间，忘掉了它有多可怕。。。
yeap had a nightmare and cldnt go back to slp anymore after tossing and turnin' in bed for abt 2 hrs? 被吓醒！so u see i m blogging at such a weird hour... hmmm.. during this 2 hrs alot of tots went thru the stupid brain of mine.. haha.. i guess it really works well at this time? ha.. wondering wad i m tinking? well i tink i haf the same prob as sh -- pushing pple away when they want to draw closer to me... mb i din push them away, instead i myself retreat... sometimes i din noe wad i myself is up to... mb i m trying to protect myself or mb i was want to be alone... i dunO...
but i m really sorry if i make anyone of u all out there who try to get closer to me to feel bad...
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alright had a outing with the shooting peeps yesterdae and it was quite a nice one despite the rain and the huge crowd at orchard.. we chat alot but mostly we are gossiping and trying to update each other... we come out with many furnie things and one of it will be the definition of ambiguous relationship... well we define it as such: u are seeing someone but not considered attached.. cheem? haha.. i shall simplify it for all of u all: single but not available... clearer? there were some interrogation going on and py, hy, kev, cr used this term.. so we tot of a definition for it lar... haha.. we really chat on alot of things but things juz are going round in circles cuz it will be back to this topic soon.. haha
well i tink i haven meet the shooting peeps for abt 6 mths? dats why they really got much to talk abt? wah come to tink of dat, i tink i haf been mia-ing their outings quite often so this gathering actually update me alot... hee.. i promise i will try to attend most of the next gatherings( i seriously hope so).. hee...
haha den went i went home, st came online and chat with me on things relating to relationship again... haha.. however we were discussing abt predators and preys.. haha.. i tink u all are clever to understand the meaning hor, no need to further elaborate rite? so which one of it are u under? the predators or the prey? i tink i belong more to the prey side but i did still do some leisure hunting.. dun understand? well i tink i m soaring up high in the sky looking for my prey but i dun dare to land and attack the preys... only those dat fly higher den me will be able to spot me.. haha.. interesting? i guess (all this are juz moment of tots dun treat them too seriously wor... ho ho ho) hard to find predators dat are determine to fly higher den me ba.. waha... mb i oso fall in dat ambiguity too? well i dunO.. haha.. so so so, basically the whole dae the things dat i discuss with or on revolve ard this topic.. haha..
wow wow.. 不知不觉 the entry become such a long one wor.. haha.. okok to stop u all from crying reading all these nonsense i shall put a full stop to all these.. and most impt,
MERRY X'MAS TO ALL U GUYS AND A SMASHING NEW YEAR!!!~
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in the lost&found box .. 4:58 am
